A reminder from God

Going to church last Sunday was not easy as I was in a lot of pain... my head felt like exploding and my body ached. It was difficult to keep myself together then and I was wondering how I was going to last with such pain..

A brother in church shared one of my favorite hymns to sing to the Lord. and the words reminded me that God had created the world and is aware of every single thing that is happening. He had also orchestrated and carried out a plan to save us all from our sin. 

It was a reminder that God knows my pain, that God knows my troubles. Yes, I'm struggling.. I'm suffering... but He is still in control. I don't know what is going on... there are so many uncertainties... but the certainty that I can have is that God is in control and that He cares. 

HOW GREAT THOU ART

O Lord my God, When I in awesome wonder,
Consider all the worlds Thy Hands have made;
I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder,
Thy power throughout the universe displayed.

Refrain:
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!

Refrain

When through the woods, and forest glades I wander,
And hear the birds sing sweetly in the trees.
When I look down, from lofty mountain grandeur
And see the brook, and feel the gentle breeze.

Refrain

And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;
Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;
That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,
He bled and died to take away my sin.

Refrain

When Christ shall come, with shout of acclamation,
And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart.
Then I shall bow, in humble adoration,
And then proclaim: "My God, how great Thou art!"

 

confusion

I haven't been well the past month, with the terrible haze looming over KL, it's intensifying my health issues. This has made me feel a general weakness that seems pretty hard to shake off. 

Sometimes it feels like I'm slipping back into a low mood. Trying to persevere and allow myself to be in the present with my emotions. Not easy.

Another thing that has been bothering is how my mind is preoccupied with the past. Some friendships seem to puzzle me. Sometimes my weakness is that I care too much. How do I separate myself from people's emotions and their experiences? Tired of being taken advantage of but I can't seem to stop caring for people. 

Boy, I need help.