it's been a long time since I wrote anything. Quite a lot of things seem to have happened recently. In a nutshell, I am planning a trip to Nepal, I have been asked to do music gigantic and I was asked to hone back my clinical skills by seeing someone.
I've had a lot of self doubt - whether going back to therapy is something I can even do. Was persuaded by someone I really respect to take on a case. Things didn't turn out so well. At the back of my head, I know that I shouldn't be feeling guilty because my client would be making their own decisions, but I do wonder if I could have done things differently. Feeling inadequate and incompetent right now. Maybe I should have declined and not give it a go when I was already doubting myself.
It's like my nightmare coming true. My failings are happening now. Just dealing with this setback too has given me intense migraines. Sigh.. I really don't know what to do. I feel so lost and alone.