I had a rather upsetting encounter with my father a few hours ago. He is someone who is emotionally abusive when he doesn't get his way. Rude and condescending when his ego is bruised, he has the ability to make me question my worth as a person. This has been true of my younger days.. I am grateful for my deepened relationship with God... who has comforted me in my times of hurt. And it has helped me feel more secure. It still hurts, but I am thankful knowing that my Heavenly Father loves me and is faithful. I was introduced to this song that has been a way for me to meditate and praise God amidst the tumult in my heart...
Lord, please give me the heart to forgive my father. Please give me the wisdom to deal with the emotional abuse.. Thank you for providing me my inmost calm that can only come from You..
My life flows on in endless song;
Above earth's lamentation,
I hear the sweet, though far-off hymn
That hails a new creation
Through all the tumult and the strife,
I hear that music ringing
It finds an echo in my soul
How can I keep from singing?
What though my joys and comforts die?
I know my Savior liveth
What though the darkness gather round?
Songs in the night he giveth
No storm can shake my inmost calm
While to that refuge clinging
Since Christ is Lord of heaven and earth
How can I keep from singing?
I lift my eyes, the cloud grows thin
I see the blue above it
And day by day this pathway smooths,
Since first I learned to love it,