self awareness

The past few weeks, I've been trying to figure out if people hear themselves talk... or if they have any self awareness. It feels like I am facing quite a few people who have very "good" things to say, the "right" things to say... but they don't actually practice what they preach. 

It's been tough making a stand... sometimes I just want to give up and let things die because I'm so tired and discouraged... Am I doing what I do out of my unfreedom? my sense of duty? I'm trying to figure things out for myself too and be aware of my own motives when I do or am involved in certain things. 

My spiritual director told me to take a few days off for me to reprioritize what is important to me, and what I feel strongly about... but at the same time, do I feel free to make certain decisions, or are my decisions/choices driven by my sense of responsibility. She cautioned me (which i believe is true) that I will resent certain aspects if I am forced to make a decision.

Lord, help me. Sometimes instead of constantly playing the encourager role, I wish there were individuals who would encourage me too...