Miracles I Experience

 Growing up in a conservation Christian household, miracles of today are deemed to be a "charismatic" belief, so it was not talked about much. 

Well, to be honest, I am still skeptical when told about the occurence of big, flashy miracles though I am not altogether against it as I believe that God is omnipotent and if it is according to His Will, who am I to say that it is't real. That said, I truly believe in the small miracles that happen, and many a time, they happen on a daily/consistent basis and we may not even realize it until we reflect upon His Hand upon us. 

I've mentioned this before - how it is a miracle that I've managed to live my life, having thrown caution to the wind, when I was younger - but it was very likely that I've had this Moyamoya disease as a conginetal problem. God's timing has always been impeccable. I've seen how God has provided for my needs, I've experienced Him prepare me for difficult moments and even now when my health continues to deteriorate - I am able to go through it with more acceptance because He had given me the sense to early on. 

Why am I bringing these to mind at this time?
I think today is just one of those that I need to cling to God harder. My patience with certain older, arrogant and idle people are wearing thin. I've been accused of being rude and insubordinate when I have already been trying to mind their ego, and many a time, I end up sacrificing what I feel is what God has placed in my heart to do because these people refuse to consider my suggestions. I am tired of being dismissed because of my gender and my junior status (in comparison to these people).

 
It's one of those days that I wonder and question about the allotment God has designed for me. And it's a needed reminder for me that God is in control and that He knows best - that He sees the Big Picture.
Today is a day that I'm tempted to think that I know better, but really, He does, and I need to humble myself. And I pray that I will be granted the grace to persevere and to stay focused on why I do what I do - it's not to garner praise from mankind, but knowing that this is what God wants me to do and be, as His child.     

I was led to these verses, which encourages my soul, and yet again, confirms that My Abba Father, recognizes my struggle and He comforts me when I need it. 

Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will exalt you ~ James 4:10

Likewise, you who are younger, be subject to the elders. Clothe yourselves, all of you, with humility toward one another, for "God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble." Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time He may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you. Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. To Him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen. 1 Peter 5:6-11

I pray that I will not lose heart or the main purpose of why I strive to serve, even in the face of discouragement. Again, God has possibly directed me to another path but my role is to be sensitive to His leading and to take action when He prompts me to do so.