Have you ever paused and wondered, "this seems all too familiar...?"
Have you ever gone through life experiences... it may not even necessarily be with the same people... but the feeling you get is that you just had a de javu?
Sometimes I think to myself...
"I've had this conversation before..."
"I've gone through this heartache before..."
"Why does this happen time and time again..?"
"Is this a pattern or some sort in my life that I won't get past until I manage to break the cycle... however that's supposed to be?"
For someone with a behavior therapy background, my functional analysis chart is left empty. I don't even know how to identify what is to change to make things better. Funny thing is, my actions have mostly been driven by my heart and not my head. My head would just tell me to give up, to walk away from the crap I experience/feel... but my heart won't allow me to let go. Always telling me to continue trying, to hang on for dear life.
It seems true that we will hurt more when we feel/love more. That seems like an ironic statement.
Is this a life lesson on love? on perseverance? on faith? All of the above? Do I follow my heart or my head? Could there be a compromise?
Questions with no answers (yet, I hope). How to find these answers? I can only pray for wisdom. Maybe the key is to keep going through these experiences until I find the answer. Sorta like trial and error, perhaps?
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