This year has been a challenge and yet I see God's Hand in whatever I am doing. My Father in Heaven has provided for my needs. My Father in Heaven has helped grant me peace for the turmoil my earthly father inflicts on me.
Lord, there are many times I want to tell others about my sacrifices I have done for the family... but I feel that God has held me back from doing so... with the constant reminder that God sees my deeds. I struggle, Lord. I struggle, feeling taken for granted. But I am comforted that God sees and He knows.
This year was a reminder that God is with me, that He is in control. And He is Enough. Many times I've yearned for more. Yearned to be able to do more. Dreamed to do things that are on my bucket list, such as sky diving, diving and bungee jumping, etc. I've had to give that up due to my condition that doesn't seem to be improving. God in His Grace has opened my heart to consider the losses I will continue to experience as my disease progresses overtime. I grieved when I realized this possibility. But the biggest thing that came out of that reflection was that God will always be there and He WILL be enough for me.
God has brought to me spiritual and emotional healing. My physical body may deteriorate but what joy to know that God is true always and forever! The Lord has given me the freedom to be true to my emotions and to be assertive. Others will pull me down but I pray that the Lord will keep me afloat.
Father, as the new year comes... I pray that You will be my Focus. Help me embrace a life that is meaningful to You. Teach me Your ways. Strengthen me for whatever that is ahead. Grant me the wisdom to live according to Your Will. Walk with me....
My Father, I surrender the year 2019 to You... I can resonate with the words of Paul.. coming Home would be a joy and gain... but if you grant me another year of life, please guide me to live a life worthy of Your gospel.
This song is a reminder of my security in Christ... may this be a prayer that brings me to and through 2019...
Christ Is Mine FOREVERMORE
Mine are days that God has numbered
I was made to walk with Him
Yet I look for worldly treasure
And forsake the King of kings
But mine is hope in my Redeemer
Though I fall, His love is sure
For Christ has paid for every failing
I am His forevermore
Mine are tears in times of sorrow
Darkness not yet understood
Through the valley I must travel
Where I see no earthly good
But mine is peace that flows from heaven
And the strength in times of need
I know my pain will not be wasted
Christ completes his work in me
Mine are days here as a stranger
Pilgrim on a narrow way
One with Christ I will encounter
Harm and hatred for His name
But mine is armour for this battle
Strong enough to last the war
And He has said He will deliver
Safely to the golden shore
And mine are keys to Zion city
Where beside the King I walk
For there my heart has found its treasure
Christ is mine forevermore
Come rejoice now, O my soul
For His love is my reward
Fear is gone and hope is sure
Christ is mine forevermore!
