One thing I do know...

Deciding to come for camp even in the midst of my crazy schedule, preparing for CCE... was the BEST decision I made. Camp is not over yet, but I felt that God has been speaking to me through the talks and through the songs we've been singing.

As i meditated on Psalms 27, i could relate to King David's struggle. but it also reminded me that we need to be remain confident in the Lord, and hope in Him. Be strong and courageous, and wait on the Lord. He is my Light and my Salvation. Whom shall I fear?

I realize in a very personal level now that God has His purpose in allowing me to struggle, to go through pain. He is refining me, to make me beautiful as how He has imagined me to be. He may even be using me, that His Name be glorified!

What certainty the ex-blind man had of his experience with Jesus. He did not know who Jesus was, but one thing he knew - he was blind but now he can see. Even for me, as i struggle at this present time with my condition, it is definitely a test of my faith. I pray that I can stand firm and trust that All is well. God is working out His purpose.

I am uncertain what lies ahead or what is in store, but one thing I do know is that God is in control and He will never forsake me.

To close, I'd like to share this song which became very personal to me tonight as I sing of God's assurance.
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BECAUSE HE LIVES!

God sent His son, they called Him, Jesus;
He came to love, heal and forgive;
He lived and died to buy my pardon,
An empty grave is there to prove my Savior lives!

Chorus
Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone;
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living,
Just because He lives!

How sweet to hold a newborn baby,
And feel the pride and joy he gives;
But greater still the calm assurance:
This child can face uncertain days because He Lives!

Chorus
Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone;
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living,
Just because He lives!

And then one day, I'll cross the river,
I'll fight life's final war with pain;
And then, as death gives way to vict'ry,
I'll see the lights of glory and I'll know He lives!

Chorus
Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone;
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living,
Just because He lives!