My Values

I had a conversation recently with Jon, a childhood friend of mine. As kids, we played a lot together and as we grew older, we began having more heart to heart conversations. Recently, he touched base with me and we got to the topic of living according our values. 

Ever since I adopted the ACT approach, this was something I personally practiced. And as I reflected deeper, I realize I could boil down my values to one word.

CONNECTION

Being able to interact with people and God (and dogs!) in meaningful ways - whether through heartfelt conversations, quality time spent doing anything/nothing, helping/empowering others to reach their potential, advocating for the voiceless, comfortably spending time with myself, and commune deeply with God.

Admittedly, in the past, I was just really fixed in being a helper as that is what i'm passionate about.. and when my body started deteriorating, it really messed with my identity as a "useful/helpful" person. but after much wrestling with God and myself, I've accepted that I can still do what I'm passionate about.. just that it will look different that what i envisioned it to be 10-20 years ago..

That said, God in His grace and mercy, has allowed me to still have some semblance to what I dream to do with Safe Haven. It's more than I could have imagined it to be. The 10+ year wait was needed for me to remain focused that this is His ministry and not mine. 

When I think of connection, I think of the many dear friends that I have. Friends that I am blessed to have. Ones that I can go crazy with, and within a split second, we could provide the safe space for vulnerability to present itself. 

As I shared this with my friend, he affirmed me without hesitation, sharing that I'm a wonderful and great person, having always been a blessing to everyone and anyone around me. Such encouraging words that mean so much. 

Life has been difficult, recent times much more so. But then again, I see how God has been with me every step of the way as well. And i'm so grateful that even in my darkest moments - when I feel isolated, I'm not actually alone. I have friends who are banding around me, being my support system. And I have a God who hears my cries and frustrations.