Although it was a short 3 days and it was crammed with laughter, eating and getting caught in massive holiday jams... I did learn a thing or two along the way.
1. I learned (or was reminded, more like) that I had actually undergone a major brain surgery just 2 months ago, and flying wasn't as easy as I expected it to be.
I actually felt pressure inside my head and had stabbing pains coming on and off during and after the flight (both ways). And I started having numbing/pins and needle sensations on my arm/leg as well. I realize that I've been pushing myself to "recover" that sometimes I forget that I did go through a rather major operation. I can be pretty hard on myself, feeling the need to let myself know that I'm OK... instead of allowing my body to recuperate on its own time. I fear displaying weakness and vulnerability. Something I've been talking about more recently but still struggle a lot with.
2. Be thankful for what you've been blessed with, and forgive and move on from things that have hurt you.
To cut it short, I was given an opportunity to appreciate someone in public, and without a doubt, my mind went straight to my bestfriend, Jessie, who has been a great comfort and help to me especially this rather difficult year. A person that I hope in all honest truth that I will never take for granted or advantage of. Also, I had witnessed an ironic situation which made me realize that sometimes biases/prejudices do occur. I may be angry about it, but the anger leads me nowhere. I think it's time for me to take care of myself and not kill myself to be the "good guy". Sometimes, people may just abuse you countless times. Jesus has taught us about faith and grace, but sometimes I wonder... would God want me to be in this same situation over and over again? So walk away after you have had enough.
3. It's always beneficial to have "group therapy".
Or in this case, i'm thankful for Jaws who always took the lead to facilitate our noisy group into having more meaningful conversations - to get to know one another better and to encourage one another. Amidst our often crazy interactions, I'm glad we do take some time to be serious and to listen to one another, to share our own thoughts, goals, etc. I'm truly thankful for my batch of MCPers. They are one of a kind.
4. Take time to really experience life.
This year has taught me to appreciate life more in the light of a potentially dangerous disease. To create memories with loved ones. To forgive and forget painful events. To be thankful for the littlest things that we so casually take for granted (i.e. good weather, arriving at our destination, having my blood flow properly in my body/brain, etc). To experience and enjoy things with a child-like wonder. To let yourself go and have a great time with people around you without being too self-conscious (by the way, it came to a point we were laughing SO hard we were kinda afraid others would complain about our boisterous volume).
To sum up everything, a rather appropriate quote came to my attention as I was writing this post. It reads:
Accept what is,
Let go of what was,
And have faith in what will be.
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