Decisions

Well... This is it. After the results of my second SPECT scan indicated that the narrowing of my arteries are very severe, my family and I decided to stick with Prof Sia Sheau Fung as my surgeon. My first surgery will be on the second Saturday of October (11th).

Now it's a race to tie up loose ends in Singapore. I have 3 weeks left but just so much to look into. I feel overwhelmed. Not to mention that this stress causes me to have even more headaches/migraines. Sometimes it's just so hard to drag myself out of bed because my mind has been going on overdrive and my body is just exhausted.

I'm touched by friends who try to check in on me... And I truly appreciate their prayers, But sometimes it's tough sorting through stuff alone. What can they do when they are not even in the same country as I am?

In these 3 weeks, I have to make a lot of major decisions. And it's tough. I feel unprepared, drained, and lost. Many times my first response is that I want to consider how others are affected by my decisions but sometimes I just feel so so tired. Why am I considering them when I suffer in return? I'm still in the "get going" phase that I haven't really had the time to process anything.

Having a mental block. Lord, I really need strength from You. I'm wearing very thin...